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Friday’s Feats and Fails

by Jeanine Lebsack

Hello Friday where have you been all week? I have been waiting all week for today. I look forward to relaxing with my family and since my Netflix is still MIA I’ve bought a couple more movies. I wish I could figure out how to fix it. So now I have to take the time to contact the company and see if they can help me. I’ve banned my children from touching the remote controls so when I do get this resolved it won’t happen again. Well enough about that let’s chat about my week.

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Last weekend was a fun skating day at the Captain’s arena and he had fun shooting slap shots with his team mates. We had a relaxing Sunday of playing, reading, writing, and movie watching. On Monday I had a great meeting and managed to cross a few things off my giant to do list. Then on Tuesday I had respite and I did some shopping and got my hair done. It was four months of growth and it was a relief to see it gone! My bangs were eight inches long and I had zero style, except wearing an awesome hat. Who would’ve thought that all that hair was weighing down my spirit?!

A before and after picture of my hair cut. I felt so great I could’ve bench pressed a Buick.! ?

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Laundry, laundry, laundry, I believe that’s enough said. I got five loads folded and still need to put away. Now there’s another five waiting in the wings. My friends is their life after laundry? I would say yes, but I’ve been to park everyday this week to provide fun and OT to my Mad dog. It’s been great enjoying the sunshine but nothing is getting done. ?

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My cousin and her family got amazing news and were able to go home this week. Little Amazing Grace is off the bottle and completely breastfeeding. She was released from the hospital on the Sunday weighing 4 lbs, 4 oz. and after being home for five days she’s already up to her birth weight of 4 lbs, 11 oz!!! Her cardiologist appointment showed nothing wrong with her heart, and the Doctor’s are impressed with her feeding. For a baby that had the odds stacked against her and specialists were foreseeing what she could and couldn’t do, she is not only surviving she is thriving!!! Amazing Grace is a testament to the human spirit, of never giving up. The doctor’s can never predict that capacity of strength or the love that heals. I look forward to the updates on Facebook and recently there’s been a Go fund me account set up for all the services that Amazing Grace will need. Such as occupational therapy, physical therapy, and speech and language therapy. As well as what’s needed for her daily baby needs. Thank you for all your love, support, and prayers. My cousin and her fiancé are appreciative of all the love shown to their precious Amazing Grace. ?

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Amazing baby Grace day 1 in the hospital?

Baby Amazing Grace sleeping peacefully at home in her crib. I love her so much. ?

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I haven’t had a lot of sleep lately, so many things on my mind and the fear of the unknown can keep me awake. I know I can’t control the future and it doesn’t make sense to worry about it. But I’m just a overwhelmed Mom that gets scared sometimes and my banged up, bruised, bandaged, heart shows through. With the sleep deprivation and exhaustion setting in my patience bucket starts to empty. I had a long day yesterday and I just wanted to make the Captain’s lunch, and watch my Grey’s Anatomy. I’m a fanatic about that show and I never miss it. After picking me up from the city and getting home late my kids were still up and hyper. I finally got them to bed at 9 pm. Not usually there bed time so they were over tired and getting their second wind. I went downstairs and got ready to watch tv and then I couldn’t find the remote. DVD’s without any cases were strewn about, popcorn, and granola bars wrappers everywhere; andit looked like it puked Toys R Us!!! I started yelling, cursing, and cleaning. Which caused everyone to get upset and then my husband found the remote and set up the tv for me. I appreciated his help especially after my verbal tirade. So I finally relaxed and decompressed while watching some TV. Welcome to life in my world, where we roll with the punches and I donate to my swear jar daily.

Did Derek cheat on Meredith? Or did these lovely ladies just hear me swearing? ☺️

Even when we think we know the future even for a second it changes. Assuming the worst can happen, or we step forward into the unknown and assume it will be brilliant. -Christina Yang (actress Sandra Oh)

I really hope that these two will make their long distance work? ?

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Yesterday I did some fundraising for my theatre group at the casino. I put in a long nine hour day there and got to know some more people, and secrets were shared in what I dubbed “the cage of truth.” I hadn’t seen anyone since December at our last performance so there were happy hugs and hellos exchanged. This was all positive and just what I needed to lift my spirits. ?

So he we are back at Friday again that’s my week in review. How was yours? It’s time to link up with me and the lovely Ash from More Than Cheese and Beer. ❤️

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Friday’s Feats and Fails

by Jeanine Lebsack

Well it’s that time of the week, the time I look forward to. It’s Friday and I’m not watching Netflix I’m drinking beer and relaxing so with no further delay here’s the week in review.

FEAT

Well every weekend starts out with hockey so off to another game we go. Everything’s good with the Captain he’s packed up his hockey bag the night before, so we’re bound to be early. We end up still arriving with 10 minutes to spare because Mad dog has a temper tantrum about getting into his seat without his Thomas train. I retrieve said train that has been dropped in the mud and life carries on. We’re experiencing a Chinook where the weather changes from -13 to +16 overnight. So now all our snow is melting. The Captain’s team ends up winning their game and we continue on home to hot chocolate, popcorn and movies.

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I haven’t been at my most patient, my kids playing musical beds has caused that. Mad dog waits till I’m sleeping or crawling into bed and then runs and jumps into his brother’s. I let them sleep as I’m too tired to move or to sore. Then Mad dog’s restless legs syndrome takes over and he kicks the Captain out of his own bed! Then he comes to me and crawls into my bed. It’s a long endless cycle and by the time Friday comes around I’m at my wits end and feeling stabby. ?

FEAT

I’ve kept up with the laundry and hockey practices all week and I’m feeling successful. My kids have been really happy lately so that’s always a good thing. I’ve settled my mind with all the up coming doctor assessments and received help from my former province. It’s been a relief that the squeaky, bitchy, wheel gets the grease, which is the help I need. Now that I have medical insurance the process of evaluation can commence. I took a long walk with my Mad dog while the Captain was at hockey with his Dad. I took some beautiful pictures of the sunset and have used them in my blogs. I also found out I was featured again on the www.originalbunkerpunks.com. I was feeling particularly vulnerable and I went to catch up on some blog reading. Low and behold I find my submission featured on the main page!!! It’s a story I wrote for my beloved Mama so I’m really proud of it. And my story I wrote of my journey to a diagnosis was featured on the www.mighty.com. Two features in one day, you couldn’t kick me off cloud nine if you tried. ?

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Mad dog has had a nasty cold/cough so he hadn’t had much of an appetite. When he does say he’s hungry he just wants sugary cereal. I only allow that for a special treat but I’m just happy he’s eating something. So in turn we’ve had healthier dinners than breakfast and lunches. My Captain came home from school right before I had respite for his brother. He didn’t even say hello he just burst into tears and fell on his bed. I was at loss about what to do because he was sobbing and I couldn’t understand what it was about. He finally was able to tell me that he got into trouble at school for accidentally hitting a student in the eye with a pillow. It was a mistake he was throwing a pillow onto the chair that someone was sitting on, and the kid was walking by and bam right in the eye. ? I had a friend of mine pass away suddenly and I’m feeling sad. He was a really wonderful man, and him and his lovely wife were like Grandparents to my sons. I sang a song for them and recorded it and sent it to the wife. She’s recovering in the hospital and I’m praying that she’ll hear I and it will bring her some comfort.

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I got that situation resolved and the Captain and the student worked out their differences and are friends. Morgan never gets in trouble at school so this was devastating for him. I took him out for hot chocolate and doughnuts just the two of us, and we had a great talk. Today a magazine that I was published in went live. I’m so excited, elated and feeling so proud. I owe it all to my beloved Mama she told me I could do anything and it feels so good to believe that again. My confidence took a shaky fall after she died and I didn’t write anywhere except for in my journal. My pain of losing her was so raw, and uncut that I didn’t think I’d be able to get through it. Well here I am today to say I am one day, one story at a time. If you’d like to read it I posted a link for it on my Facebook page.

https://www.facebook.com/jsackmomblog

Thank you for reading my week in review this has been my submission to Ash’s www.morethancheeseandbeer.com. Check out her week and all the other talent that links up. All the best to you, until our next adventure take care of you. ?

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Friday’s Feats and Fails

by Jeanine Lebsack

Wahoo it’s the weekend! It’s my favorite day of the week as it’s also my Captain’s best day as he’s much more relaxed when he comes home from school. It’s been a long week that’s felt like more than a month! So I’ll do my best to give you hi-lights and the low lights.

FEAT

As a family we start every Friday out with a movie, popcorn and cuddles. Can you see why it’s my favorite day? I love to hear my kids chatting, making each other laugh, and the things that they come up with to entertain me and each other. I managed to get through a movie without falling asleep and getting both kids to bed. And we were all organized because the Captain had his hockey bag packed and ready to go at the front door. I love that he’s so excited to go play instead of fighting me just to leave the house. ?

FAIL

Hockey was a smooth day minus one hiccup. My Mad dog doesn’t want to sit still and with his sensory condition he just can’t unless there’s a IPad game, or something vibrating and flashing to keep his interest. We were sitting in the arena and he was getting antsy and didn’t want anything to do with the bag of toys I brought him. So he was bored and stimming (seeking sensory input). This is when he gets mouthing and biting so as to get instant input. Well he started licking the hand rail and a young girl walked by. I went to grab his hands and lead him away, but that’s no possible when he’s screaming. This girl came up to me and said “he’s licking the pole, I replied yes I know. ” Her response was what’s wrong with your kid?” This stung me right to the core, so I replied “he has a sensory condition, no big deal.” She began to laugh and I told her keep on walking. I didn’t handle it calmly, I tried but it just hit me in the heart.

FEAT

We had a successful hockey weekend, but traveling together always seems to make my kids even more sensory. So I have the laptop charged playing movies, iPad and the V-tab when sharing the laptop isn’t feasible. Mad dog was very successful with his potty training and I’m so proud of his accomplishment. The Captain won both his games and we ended up running into my brother in-law and sister in-law before left a hockey game. It was such an amazing reunion as we hadn’t seen them in seventeen years. Living at the other ends of each province will do that. As well as being hockey parents that will bring you together for the sport, or keep you on the road every weekend away from everyone.

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Monday was a difficult day I had Dr’s appointments for my kids with a new Pediatrician. Since it was an assessment the visits were lengthy while I answered questionnaires. My husband came with the Captain while I went in with the Mad dog. He was very agitated and didn’t want to have anything to do with the Dr. I had prepared him with a social story and did his OT exercises beforehand. But when he’s uncomfortable it doesn’t matter what I do to accommodate him. He started to get antsy and my husband and I tag teamed off and he took him home, and I took the Captain. This is where it got difficult as the Pediatrician was very thorough and wants Maddox assessed for ASD and OCD. Hearing those letters made my head swim as she read out her report. It was hard to hear and even harder to talk about my Captain and his anger and anxiety issues. He was bored, angry, and disrespectful. And I understood why, it was difficult for both of us. He will be assessed for ADHD and ODD. My heart breaks for my sons having to struggle, but labels and letters equal help for them so I’m accepting that one day at a time. ❤️

*Image used with permission from www.sharingwithshari.com*

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I heard a brilliant guest speaker at my support group and he talked about the risk factors of addiction. And also how they correlate to an an ADHD diagnosis. This psychologist was so amazing, thorough, and interesting with his approach I was able to see everything I had encountered in my life in the past six years more clearly. My Captain was also able to articulate how he was feeling when I talked to him about getting help for his anger and anxiety. He doesn’t want to be bullied anymore so he won’t wear headphones in the classroom. But he said he’d try them at home, and he wishes he could stop his brain from saying stupid things. I reassured him it’s never his fault, and we all need to be kinder in our family. ?

FAIL

With all the changes with Dr’s appointments and my stress levels my Mad dog has slipped in his potty training. I blame myself as I’ve been preoccupied with scheduling more appointments, applying for funding, and researching. Life has been topsy turvy with Mercury in retrograde so there’s always a few more curveballs to dodge. I found out I didn’t have health insurance from either province and I was just sick when I was told my Ped Dr visits were $300!!! Of course I had a few family Dr’s visits as well so color me embarrassed. ? I also had to apologize for getting frustrated and letting my feelings get the best of me. Luckily the receptionist could see a tired, overwhelmed Mom and they didn’t charge me a cancellation fee. I really appreciated that and assured them I’d be back with my Health insurance.

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After applying for health insurance for the third time our claim was processed and we got our Heath care numbers to use immediately. And our coverage will be retroactive from October 1 st. All it took was a trip into the city, an understanding insurance agent, and ID and boom problem solved. ?
So now here we are going into the weekend and it’s hockey time again. I’m way ahead of the game as laundry is all caught up with one load in the dryer to be folded tomorrow. Ha take that laundry you’re my bitch this week. ? The Captain’s hockey bag is organized and ready, dishes are washed and floors are vacuumed. Tomorrow I tackle the bathrooms and mopping and fold and put away laundry. It’s amazing what happens when I get an hour or two of extra sleep. I’ve also been taking am electrolyte supplement and drinking two liters of water daily. As well as taking my vitamins, walking, and doing cardio on the treadmill.

So here we are heading into the weekend so we’ll see what adventures are in store for my family and I then. Until next weekend, blessings to you with whatever you’re doing and wherever you’re doing it. ?

This has been my submission to Ash’s Friday’s Feats and Fails at www.morethancheeseandbeer.com Please check out how her week went and all the other talent who link up. Smooches to you for being here on my journey. ?

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Friday’s Feats and Fails

by Jeanine Lebsack

This week has flown by for me it seems Monday is the longest day of the week, and then I blink and it’s Friday. I’m so happy when it’s family movie night as we stay up laughing and enjoying each other’s company. So it was an eventful week so let’s get to it.

FEAT

The biggest event to happen was my Mad dog started potty training!!! Throughout the month of December I’ve been asking him if he wants to wear underwear or a diaper. Well he’s always chosen a diaper and would occasionally go potty. I let the idea be his as with his SPD (Sensory Processing Disorder) it’s not something I can rush. So Tuesday morning I didn’t ask him and he told me he wanted to wear underwear! I’m so proud of my big boy he’s growing up so fast. ?❤️

FAIL

Well it’s been a little testy with my kids playing musical beds lately so we all need some sleep. Tempers have been flaring and my Mad dog has learned some words that I didn’t want to hear him say. Nothing like hearing your kid say the word that rhymes with truck in perfect context. ? Major parenting fail on my part and I own it. So I’ve been trying to correct that behavior while the Captain giggles in the background.

*Image used with permission from the sensational Shari at
www.sharingwithshari.com*

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I’ve been writing lots the ideas have just been flowing to me. Taking the blogging 101 classes has been wonderful and I’m finding a lot of great feedback on what I’ve been sharing. I wrote a blog about my surviving Post Partum Depression. It was very hard to write but I had always wanted to tell my story. So I wrote it and saved it as a draft since I was unsure about sharing it. Well I woke up this morning and felt brave and hit the publish button. The response I got back was amazing. I’m so glad I faced my fears and put myself out there to help someone who needed to read that part of my journey. ?

FAIL

I’ve done zero housework it’s been tough getting anything finished with being on potty alert. So I’ve focused on that and kept up with the laundry and dishes. My kids haven’t been sleeping well so that means I haven’t either. Just as I fall asleep one of them wakes up so we’ve all been short tempered. So now I have to focus on us catching up on those missing zzzz’s and fill up our patience buckets. ❤️

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After completing almost all my blogging assignments this week I had some extra time to work on my book draft. I invited my lovely talented friends Loorducation and Imperfect Mom to guest blog for me. I loved having them here to interact with my dear readers and I was also on theirs. I love showcasing different content and reading these incredible ladies stories inspired me. I’ve read so many blogs lately that my books are getting jealous. ? I found out this morning that another one of my submissions to the www.originalbunkerpunks.com was accepted. I’m feeling so grateful and weepy as it’s on their featured page. I can feel my dear beloved Mama smiling down on me.???

So now it’s the end of the work week so time for another action packed hockey weekend for my family and I. I love seeing my Captain out there playing hard, having fun, and making me proud. ???

This has been my submission to Ash at www.morethancheeseandbeer.com. Check out how her week has been and all the other talent that link up. Smooches and hugs. ?

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Fridays Feats and Fails

by Jeanine Lebsack

Well this week went by in a blur, there was hockey, theatre practices, a parent council meeting, and very little sleep. So here I am doing a very late post, that’s really how I roll lately. So let’s chat about it shall we?

FEATS

I had a busy weekend with my Captains hockey and theatre practice. I was able to spend the Sunday morning in bed. I got the family ready and out the door for a game and I hopped back into bed. I got some laundry folded, blogging done, returned some emails and texted my lovely Mom friends. ❤️

FAIL

Even though I was kept busy I barely slept. My son, my poor little Mad dog is back to snoring and usually when that happens his sleep apnea affects him. I fall asleep listening to him on the monitor and after he snores he usually stops breathing. The gluten free or low gluten diet and medication regimen isn’t working like I had thought it would. It’s so disheartening to me so I have to get him more blood work done. This isn’t easy with a sensory condition. A lot of time I struggle with just getting him out the door to pick up his brother for school. Which is a huge accomplishment five days of week. And any additional plans met and finished are the icing on the cake of our week.

FEAT

I’ve kept up with cleaning the house and laundry and I honestly feel so good about that. I just get too scattered when I see it piling up and my house turning into a clutter zone. I completed 70 blog posts in 70 days. I’m feeling really proud of myself as I started writing as a 30 day goal and I smashed that!!! I spent the Monday hanging out just relaxing with my family. It was so fun to cuddle, watch Christmas movies as the Captain had the day off of school. After a busy weekend with everyone running in different directions we really need that to reconnect.

FAIL

The sleep deprivation has taken its toll and my fuse has been short. I’ve felt so bad lately like I’ve been a horrible parent. Then my Captain blew up at me and told me I was a horrible Mom and he wanted to live with just his Dad. It crushed my heart, and I realized I can’t help him as much as I wish. What an awful, lonely, desperate feeling that is…. I caught him in a lie, and he exploded on me, and really it wasn’t about the fib it was about his reaction to it. So I know he needs more help than what I can offer with his anxiety. So I signed up for a support group for parents of anxious kids so I can get some helpful advice and meet some other parents.

FEAT

I had a meeting with the home support society and found out I qualify for respite care. I’ll have day time help with an extra support for when I’m home, and a care giver for my youngest so I can have some me time. My husband and I will also be able to have some we time as well. Wahoo date nights after a 6 month hiatus will be so crucial to the communication in my marriage. I’m looking forward to it, although I’m a little apprehensive. I know my Mad dog is in great hands as he met the respite worker and he fell in love. They played in his room for the 3 hour time frame of the interview. He only came out to reference me once to tell me what toys they were playing with. Usually he won’t let me out of his sight for too long. So I pray that the progress will continue to be positive.

FAIL

I failed to pass my eye exam today to get my new provincial drivers license. I had to get myself to an optometrist immediately. Thank God that they had a toy room because my little boy was at the end of his patience bucket. I got there for 2:30 and didn’t leave until 4:30 pm. I had all sorts of tests done, some the usual and some new ones. My prescription has changed drastically and a cataract was discovered. I was not prepared to hear that news at all!!! So now I have to get a full medical work up to find out why the drastic change. I was asking my husband to come get Mad dog so I could talk to the optometrist as I was doing my best not to freak out. But he chose not to and I had to remind him that we do indeed have two sons. So the day was really shit tastic and all I wanted to do was run home and curl up in a ball and cry. But I pulled up my big girl panties and got ready for the opening of my pantomime play and carried on to my next adventure.

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I was ripped off by a skin care company and I found out the hard way while checking my bank statements. So I ranted, and threatened legal action and got my refund. DO NOT, I repeat DO NOT buy anything from the company Dermajuvenate. And if you have, contact them immediately and cancel or your account will get auto ship payments without your knowledge. When something seems to good to be true it generally is. ? So I’m considering this both a feat and a fail because I shouldn’t have gotten scammed in the first place!!! These companies prey on women who just want to look good for their age. I will stick with reputable cosmetic companies from now on. My last words to this slimy customer service rep was “karma’s a bitch and you just met her!!!

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My Facebook blog page is growing steadily every day. I’m enjoying myself there, and look forward to it being more of a community than just talking to myself. ? You can check it out here if you wish https://www.facebook.com/jsackmomblog
I’ve been blessed to be featured by another prominent WordPress blog site called http://featuredemagazine.com/freshly-featured/
I went there looking for some new blogs to read and potentially follow, and I found my own. Words alone couldn’t express how I felt seeing my writing along with all the other incredible talent. Elated, exalted, taken to a whole new level of happiness by that wonderful recognition. ?❤️?
So that’s my week in a wrap up and I’ve learned an important lesson from this wonderful quote that I treasure.

Life is neither good or bad, it’s the thinking that makes it so.

William Shakespeare

Much love and blessings to you dear readers. ?

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Friday’s Feats and Fails

by Jeanine Lebsack

Well I started out my last Friday with a long weekend. It was a Canadian Thanksgiving so I packed up my boys and heading out on a road trip. I went back to my hometown for my best friends Mom’s funeral. It was a very sad occasion but I was so glad I could be there for my bestie and her family.

FEAT

I was armed with my trusty driving companion SIRI, gassed up truck, road trip tunes, and my cutie pie sons rocking out in the backseat. I didn’t get lost or anxious which is a major feat for me. I made good time too, and my kids and I had fun telling stories and making up silly songs.

FAIL

Before we left town my Captain and I got into an argument. He’s been stressed out at school with being bullied, and he was missing his first hockey game on the weekend. So no matter what I won’t be screamed at by anyone so I called in my hubby with reinforcements. The Captain and I were locked in a power struggle and I had to leave. So his Dad talked to him and explained there would be other hockey games and I had to be there for my bestie. With both my Captain and I being so much alike and stubborn, I shudder for his teenage years. ?

FEAT

I made it through the funeral and was able to support my best friend and sing for lovely Lucy. I also shared a story I wrote for her. It was an emotional day and my kids were able to have a play date with their cousins. I’m so grateful for all the help I had for the weekend. An amazing baby sitter who’s an ECE (Early Childhood Educator) awesome family that looked after my boys so I could attend the funeral, and time spent with my best friend. ❤️

FAIL

I’ve been so exhausted since my traveling that I’ve been a sloth so laundry piled up. It got washed, dried folded, and will be put away eventually. ? I crawled into bed and watched the season premiere of the Walking Dead and called it a day.

FEAT

We had a wonderful thanksgiving with my husband and I contributing to the dinner preparation. I was so thankful to be home with my fabulous family and celebrating our first big feast in our new home. So I stuffed myself literally and went into a turkey coma and had a much needed nap on the couch. Woke up to discover the sink was clogged, and it was time to put my kids to bed and get prepared for school.

FAIL

I took my sons to school the next day and was waiting for the bell to ring and I saw this boy that’s been picking on my son. So he came up to the Captain and started poking him in the chest and I started yelling at him to back off. He didn’t even acknowledge me so I told Morgan tell him to stop! I was very angry and I couldn’t contain it. So I had to leave immediately when the bell rang because I was going to follow that brat and unleash Mama bear on him. ?

FEAT

I’ve managed to hold it together, get caught up on laundry, got my Mad dog’s paperwork together so he can see a sleep specialist this weekend. I got my Captain to and from hockey practice and then to theatre practice. And I was able to be on sink duty when I discovered both sinks were clogged up after I ran the dishwasher. I admitted defeat and crawled into bed thinking this too shall pass. And note to self, call the plumber in the morning.

FAIL

Never ever put potato peelings in the garburator, they will not be reduced to mush and wash down the drain. My hubby thought that was a good place for them. I’m a 1/3 Irish so I know a thing or two about potatoes. And my Mom and Gram used the whole thing even when making mashed potatoes. The skins were always used up by melting cheese, bacon, chives, and voila instant appetizer. Mmm bacon….what was I writing about now?

FEAT

I called the plumber the sink’s fixed, I came home cut up wood for the fire pit from the branch that has been sitting there for 3 weeks. I played some hockey with my youngest and then came inside to have hot chocolate and watch a movie and write my blog. So all in all a busy week, I survived, didn’t beat anybody up in my reality, but wow in my mind and heart I’ve been Rocky Balboa. Yo Adrienne I did it!!!

This Friday’s Feats and Fails brought to by fabulous Ash at www.morethancheeseandbeer.com. Check out how her week went and all the others awesome bloggers who link up. Big hugs and high fives. ?

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Friday’s Feats and Fails

by Jeanine Lebsack

Oh another week flew by and it’s already Friday, how does that keep happening? Monday seems to be the longest day then there’s must see TV in between there and wahoo Friday Funtime.

FEAT

It was a beautiful day this past Friday and my kids and I went and played at the park. A new one had been set up in the neighborhood, so it was awesome to have a new place to play. The bonus was everyone was having fun including me, while chasing my kids up and down the slide. Usually my Mad dog wants to stay and play for hours and my Captain is tired after a long day of school. But this time it was a win/win for everybody. And we walked home and the Captain had a great day. It makes me smile and breath a sigh of relief for him as the bullying incidences have been hard on all of us.

FAIL

I had a great weekend because my sister and brother in-law came to visit. The only fail was I didn’t get all my housework done or my hot tub set up. Plus I was up late on Saturday night and a sloth the next day. But really who cares, I got to watch movies and drink wine with my sister so it’s all good. Besides she comes to see me and my family not my house. ?

FEAT

Sunday wasn’t very productive but I learned a new dance at theatre practice and I was proud of myself because I nailed it. While some others were struggling with the routine I wasn’t, so I was able to help out a little. Sometimes I feel like a piece of furniture there without a speaking role so it was nice to feel useful. Monday was awesome, my hubby let me sleep in and I got caught up on housework. My poor l little boy caught a cold so he had hot chocolate and snuggles with me. I love days like that, I just get all warm and fuzzy feeling so loved. ?

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I found out on Sunday night my best friends Mom passed away. It literally shattered my heart. I could feel all my bestie’s pain as I have walked this path myself. And they were very close, like my beloved Momma and I were. After My Mom passed, Lucy said I would never be alone because I had her. And they got to know each other very well living in the same facility. I took great comfort in knowing I was so loved and looked after, at that time I was feeling such despair. So I couldn’t sleep much all week so I wrote a blog and dedicated it to Lucy. My bestie was very touched and I offered to sing at Lucy’s funeral. She was a precious gem of a lady so I’m honoured to be able to do that for her and her family. Such an emotional week already then my Captain came home and told me he got bullied again!!! He also said that the administration staff don’t consider what’s happening to him as bullying. Because it’s not consistent, and only happening with different kids, so they spoke to him about coping strategies. Well I was waiting for the last incident to be resolved and now I have to deal with this new one. WTF is going on with kids today? What gives them the right to physically harm my kid?!!! I told my son exactly what I felt and I probably should’ve used more discretion. Because his response was “wow Mom I didn’t know you could say all those swear words all at once!” Yeah I’m a truckers daughter and I have the potty mouth to prove it. ?

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On Thursday I had a meeting with the school staff and I made a point of telling them how well liked my son was in his previous school. The questions I brought up was what’s going on with yours? And do I have to come supervise him on the playground? We disagreed on the actual term of bullying. Never the less they’re recognizing it as a problem, and maybe he needs someone help transitioning to his new school. Do you think? I just want each and every kid that physically hurts my son to know that there are consequences. And the school assured me that’s what’s happening. Community service seems to be the go to punishment of choice. I don’t care if these brats are scrubbing toilets or picking up garage, stay away from my son!!! So now the administration want to help my son with some sensory needs as he’s been complaining about too much noise and commotion in class. I got through the meeting without cursing, crying, and put some a strategies in place to help my Captain, so way to go Redneck Mama!!!

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Since the Captain has started playing hockey he’s loving it. As well being tired, sore, and moody. So little Mad dog is home being sick and miserable and big brother is grumpy. Boom!!!! The two of them get sick of each other and epic melt down was the result. It was so bad that I had to leave the house. I should’ve been more patient, but I’m emotionally worn out this week, so my patience bucket’s empty.
I ended up taking the youngest out to McDonald’s play land and he had fun after being cooped up inside. I was glad he was feeling better too, since that means I can catch up on some zzzz’s myself. The Captain got to spend one-on-one time with his Dad, watching hockey and being a man cub in training. So in the end everyone got what they wanted. We all just had to blow up with each other so that part was a fail. With great emotion comes great passion so when we know better, we do better.

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Well here it is Friday and my kids and I took a road trip so I could be with my bestie and her family for the funeral. I was able to get a amazing sitter and attend the viewing tonight. I truly felt Lucy at peace and she looked so beautiful, having the best sleep of her life. There was a few tears, hugs, and some laughter as the family was sharing stories. I kept thinking how it was only a few years ago that was I was there trying to be brave, and mourning the loss of my parents. I kept hearing songs of my Mom and Dad’s favorites. A little Charlie Pride and Elvis Presley are so good for the soul. Music is a wonderful sensory and healing experience. I’m thankful to God everyday, I have it in my life to cope with my daily struggles. So tomorrow I will honor lovely Lucy with love, pride, and a gift of song. ?

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Fridays Feats and Fails

by Jeanine Lebsack

Well I’m surprised at how fast time is flying by, like seriously flying at the speed of light. Or is that just me and my heart racing? I’m telling you this has been a tough ass month for me.

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I’ve managed to make it through the last few Friday’s without inflicting harm on anyone. My son has been bullied in his new school and it’s tearing me to pieces!!! I dealt with immediately and blogged about it, since it brought back a lot of my past icky memories. ?

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I wanted to hurt someone, just for a moment, for picking on my sweet boy. I ranted with my hubby about school being a safe place, and our son has every right to be able to learn and grow there as an individual. He shouldn’t have to be watching his back and having to physically move himself every time the bully comes near him! With all this stress and changeable weather I got really sick, like a cold/flu virus from hell. ?

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I managed to fold 8 loads of laundry and get 3 put away before I had company on Saturday. My brother in-law and sister in-law came to visit. This was their first time meeting my youngest son, so it was a big deal. It was nice to catch up with them as we don’t see them more than every 3 years. But we live only 2 hours away from each other, so I look forward to more future visits. My kids were excited and in full show off mode for aunty and uncle. So they got away with a little more goofing off then usual. I’ve been sick cranky Mommy lately, so they had to meet fun Mommy sometime. ?

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Due to being so sick I got really behind on housework and my responsibilities. So it looked like Toys R Us set a bomb off in my house. Toys everywhere, laundry multiplying like filthy rabbits, demanding kids, and a busy working husband, well something had to give and Mommy blew up!!! I immediately apologized but the damage was done, and I did more harm than good. ?You see my youngest has a sensory condition and requires daily occupational therapy. Feeling like death on a ritz cracker and him and I sharing the same germs, we got nothing done. As the result of that his central nervous system has been over loaded. He’s been biting, spitting, and screaming at the top of his lungs. And my poor frayed nerves couldn’t take one more moment. ? And his brother couldn’t handle all the garbage at school, so he’s been anxious and lashing out at everyone. So one wound up sensory jumper cable of a boy + one anxiety ridden powder keg of emotion boy= BOOM!!!! A massive melt down of epic proportions. ?

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I got through the weekend feeling about 75 % and took my time cleaning the house. I had theatre practice that day, which always makes me happy so I went off to that. While I was waiting for the doors to open up, i started thinking about all these toxic emotions. I got myself worked up and I could feel a panic attack coming on. I haven’t had one of those in 2 years so I got scared. I did some deep breathing exercises and took some Bach rescue remedy and carried on with practice. No would’ve known I was struggling to breath into a paper bag 15 minutes before. I’m like super Mom (without my cape, because it’s still in my overflowing laundry basket) ?

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I didn’t get as much as I wanted to accomplish this week done. So I’ve been beating myself up about that. I have kind, encouraging, words for everyone when they need it but when I need it the most, I’m the last to give it. I know I suffer from “Mommy comes last syndrome” and it sucks. I need to make some changes and continue putting my emotional, physical, and mental needs first. Well that is after everyone has clean clothes, food in their bellies, and a clean diaper for my toddler. ?
I took a one week fitness challenge and failed miserably. Being so sick I was living off of tea, water, and soup. So I didn’t follow the meal plan and I was too weak and dizzy to do the exercises. So time to repeat that challenge and work a little harder, especially on my self worth as that’s been in the toilet lately.

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As we were feeling 90 % better my little one and I went to play group. It was nice to see some Moms I knew, meet new ones, and see my son playing and having fun. I also took him to the playground which is great exercise for us both and instant OT. ? I made plans to visit with 2 of my dear high school friends as we live close by each other. I didn’t realize how lonely I felt till they appeared in my kitchen. I wanted to cry, squeal with joy, and hug them all at once. I held back a bit on my over enthusiasm, as to not overwhelm them. I took a pic before we had rush off for school pickup and posted it on my Facebook. Our smiling faces started a thread of comments and 65 likes and counting. It seems a lot of our other high school friends want to have a reunion. Our happiness brought their happiness out, and to me that was the best gift of the week. ❤️

Today’s Friday’s Feats and Failures brought to you by the brave and beautiful Ash of www.morethancheeseandbeer.com. Check out her week and all the other fantastic bloggers that link up. Smooches my dear readers, you keep me smiling and brave enough to face another week. ?

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