#Monday Musings-knocking from the inside
There are times that I’ve felt like no one is listening while I knock on the door to success. Is it because I’m pinning all my hopes and dreams on that door opening? Or did I just forget the formula to achieve it? A lot of time it’s my own self limiting beliefs that are holding me back. I take stock of my life every time someone I love dies. There’s really no better time to make changes and have them have creedence.
I knew that I wanted to see my name in print so after my cousins death last year shortly before Christmas I wrote out my goal list. On there was my first goal to live life to its fullest, believe in myself, and share my writing. I ended up published for the first time on the Original Bunker Punks website and then I had a dream and wrote about it. As it took me away from the pain and grief of all I have lost of the last seven years.
That dream was a blessing to me as the words ebbed and flowed with my fingertips transporting to a place that was so beautiful and esoteric in nature. I knew as soon as I finished I would have to share this dream that clawed it’s way out of my sleep deprived mind. I was encouraged to submit it to a magazine and it was published.
To see my name in a by line of a popular magazine was proof that I was believing in myself and I was living life to it’s fullest. I write for myself, for the words that spin and swirl like a tornado in my mind, and most of all for my beloved Mama who still helps me on angels wings. It’s a joy and a privledge to be able to share this story with you here about the Voyage of Discovery.
I’m in a habit of making my dreams come true when I can beat back the anxiety monster that threatens me and tells me “I’m not good enough no one would ever read anything you wrote!” I’m proud to look at my story framed on the wall beside a picture of my beautiful Mom. She had always wanted me to grab the opportunities presented to me with a gusto. Now I feel beyond blessed that that my words are being shared and appreciated out there in the interwebs.
I still have the list of goals keeping me accountable and after a few more publications I decided to try my hand at book writing. I signed up for Nanowrimo and wrote with a flourish then another death in my family sidelined me and my efforts. I dove into my theatre commitments and continued writing with a vengeance to catch up on my word count in my quiet time. Only to have my phone storage delete my 10,000 words!
I don’t see this as a failure just a set back and I’ll continue writing as my story needs to be told. After a few more publications, guest posts, and seeing my writing being appreciated I set the bar higher. The other thing on my goal list is I wanted to come to fruition was I wanted to be in a book. I chose my opportunity carefully as I wanted to stay true to myself and write something that I would want to read. I’m blessed beyond belief to be a proud contributor to a book anthology with some other amazing collaborators!
I read and reviewed the first book in the Lose The Cape series with the editors and the talented authors Alexa Bigwarfe and Kerry Rivera. I felt I had found the answer to my prayers! I had judged myself for not being super Mom and this book delivered validation to me for the first time I became a parent. After I read it and put my review up I thought I want to be in their next book.
Well I believe in the power of intention and the law of attraction and once you put those kind of thoughts out in the universe magic happens. Now as the year comes to a close soon I’ve accomplished that goal. The next instalment in the Lose The Cape series will be released on Dec. 9 th and there’s an exciting giveaway going on at their website. As I reflect back on my list of goals I realized all that time that I was knocking on the door to success I was knocking from the inside. And now that door is wide open and there’s no stopping me now!
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22 thoughts on “#Monday Musings-knocking from the inside”
Love the Rumi quotes “Wear gratitude like a cloak and it will feed every corner of your life…”
Well done on the writing. I really need to get my finger out and take some of my own advice!!
Writing writing writing….
Rumi quotes have moved my soul on more than one occasion. Thank you for sharing that one. Yes writing fill your screen, pages, uplift your heart with your words! ?
Yes this is true. Every once in a while we need motivation, maybe a book (like you found) or someone close or a random visual… motivation beats all blues 🙂
It really does once I allow myself to be led by the excitement of the unknown rather than the fear of it, than I’m truly living! ?
It’s great to see that writing is working out so well for you. I have shared a post here, I just hope the link worked out.
This is quite inspirational on its own. I’m happy you found success in doing what brings you solace and succor. Yes, I think this is a jolt, a needed one.
Thank you so much! Sometimes we find what we’re looking for without realizing it. I always like to think of the divine intervention at times like that. ??
Hmm, I can definitely relate to that.
It’s how I live my live I just go where the energy takes me. ?
They say there is always something to learn from everyone. I’m glad I’ve had some quality education today.
Nothing beats listening to our inner voice and succumbing to it’s inevitable drive.
I agree, it’s the steady thrum of my heart that leads me to the most amazing places. ?
Of course, never has the heart led anyone astray.
Tis true. ?
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Thank you so much! ?
Nearly 6 months ago, one of my closest friends commited suicide.. It’s been tough. And I still really struggle everyday with getting up and doing something with my life- you know? But your post was actually so powerful and influential on me! It’s made me want to get up and start writing away at my own stories and what not. Thank you so so much! You have no idea how much I appreciate it! X
Oh wow Hannah that’s the best compliment thank you! I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost one of my closest friends tragically 6 months ago and I struggled with my own mortality. I’m beyond honoured that my story sparked the light in your heart. ?❤️
Ditto. I am really sorry for your losses. Keep on smiling!:)
Thank you, the best thing we can do for our loved ones is to keep living the life that gives us joy. ??
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