Ten Things of Thankful
I’m back for another week of thankfuls after missing my chance to post by falling asleep before the linkup expired! You know you’re sleepy when you fall asleep writing. Usually it’s the opposite the words pouring out of my brain to my digital paper keep me awake. Tonight won’t be any different as I replay my week and share my thankful moments positive or negative. Thank you to the TTOT gang to have a place to ruminate, reflect and replay my bucket full of thankfuls.
This has been a rough week I’ve had a death in my family, four theatre performances, and a lot of appointments. I’ve been emotionally and physically exhausted and fell off my workout scheduled. All I’ve been able to do is exchange it for yoga and meditation. This is the second death to hurt my heart in six months and I feel the need to hide away for awhile and heal my wounds. But alas my life’s not designed in the way so I just take a break from things that I don’t have the energy for. I’m thankful that I’ve realized I can do that without any guilt to weigh me down.
My son had a polysonogram sleep study last month and I’ve recently got the results that he has severe Obstructive Sleep Apnea. I knew this before the test was done as I’ve been walking this path with him for nearly two years! I’m so thankful that I found someone to help him finally! He was seen by the first ENT who said his tonsils were fine and he just had a long tongue and there wasn’t anything he could do for my son surgically.
Fast forward to 7 months later and I know his medication regimen has shrunk his swollen tonsils but he will require surgery. I’m so thankful for the new ENT that will be performing the surgery. His office administrator was amazing to me as she explained the procedures and what to expect before and after surgery. My son will also require further testing of an EKG to rule out seizures, and an MRI to measure his brain size for his developmental challenges. I’ve called these his invisible forces you can’t see them until they come out in his behaviour. Even though my sweet boy has a lot to endure for his tender age of four he still smiles, lives life with a gusto, and loves with all his being! I’m so thankful for his tenacity and inner strength that inspire me daily to be better and advocate more for him and his brother. Life throws me curve balls and I’m thankful that I’ve been able to knock them out of the park. I’m only one Mom with an amazing support team and for that my gratitude is endless.
I have another passion in life besides reading, writing, and fitness and that is theatre. I’ve been so blessed to become part of an amazing cast in the pantomime Beauty and the Beast. We’ve had four performances this week with a sold out show today! I love being part of this very talented cast of all ages with the camaraderie we share on stage and backstage. This is my theatre family who make me laugh, cry, and feel grateful to have this connection. I’m so thankful to be able sing, dance, and entertain and put some happiness in some sad hearts- including my own.
I’ve been keeping up with my book writing and I joined up for Nanowrimo (National November Writing Month) I’ve enjoyed finding writing buddies to encourage me and my own local region that keep me inspired with my daily word count. I’m thankful that I’ve been able to write out the pain that engulfs me and to let it go in print. Being busy has got me further behind with my word count but I’m thankful that I still have some time to catch up.
Through all of this worry, stress, and grief I have my family holding me up when I feel I will fall. I stumble from time to time and they’re always there to lift up my heart again. Death is difficult, I don’t see the final goodbye to life as a beginning at first. I need time to process it as I think about all that I’ve lost in the last ten years and I’m overcome with emotion. I’m thankful for these dark nights of my soul as they help me appreciate the sunshine in my life. I would be lost without my loves who are my greatest support and the best cheerleaders to be blessed with.
I’m thankful for a place to share and I thank you for letting me pour it all out here. I write to make sense of things in my life, and to feel less scared. I truly believe that each story I give birth to helps me to heal one fragment of my heart at a time. For that I’m thankful and feel so blessed.
22 thoughts on “Ten Things of Thankful”
Very nicely written and I am sorry for your loss.
With your can do attitude you will get through of that I am sure and as far as the acting goes? Well only one thing to say “Break a leg”!!
Thank you so much for your sympathies. I love being on stage and entertaining it brings me happiness to bring my audience happiness. ?
Well if you love it, you must continue to embrace it and have it in your life.
It is good for us all to do something we love. I am still looking for that one thing and am sure one day I will find it!
I really do I had a long hiatus from acting since high school. Then I went to a play with my oldest son and he volunteered us. It was a wonderful experience and I’ve been loving it ever since. You’ll find your passion ones soul seeks it out before you’re even aware. ?
I’m sure I will. I went to look at a mountain bike today and was very tempted to be honest but halted at the eleventh hour as I am still unsure if it is THE thing!
You’ll know it when you first try it. Your passion will speak to you and never let you go. Mountain biking and hiking are great passions to explore. ?
I love my hiking although the weather really is turning quite foul here at present and I always loved my Mountain Biking so perhaps it is time for a switch during these awful winter months….
Take that workout indoors my friend. It’s officially winter in my part of the world so me and treadmill are getting re aquatinted since it’s so slippery to go hiking or walking. ?
Too late! Just bought my Mountain Bike!
Wahoo that’s awesome enjoy my friend. ???
Congratulations on the writing for NaNoWriMo. I’m a little behind because of a writing class that needs polished and edited work, but I’m combining the two and am pleased to be writing every day. The theater project sounds interesting.
Thank you Val, I’m loving Nanowrimo and have been behind myself but look forward to taking some this week to catch up. Congratulations on being on board as well with your book writing. Please feel free to add me as a writing buddy, I’m under Jsackmom. ?
I don’t know how but I’ll try
If you just scroll down to writing buddy you can click on that and then type my username in there and it will come up and you can send me an invite. If it doesn’t work I’ll come and find you. ?
I’m sorry you lost someone close to you this week. Mourning is difficult, but especially so when you just don’t have the time to actually mourn.
Sounds like your 4 year old has been through a lot lately. Poor guy. I pray the surgery goes well, the recovery is quick and easy, and it takes care of the problems.
Thank you Christine a difficult week indeed and worry over my son has made me more than stressed. Yet I can put all aside and sing, dance, and entertain on stage and bring some happiness to myself and others. I really appreciate your prayers. ?
Thank you Christine it’s been a roller coaster ride. It’s been a long road for my son and I join you and thank you for the prayers. ?
Getting the right answers from the right doctors is a challenge. I hope the surgery goes well for your son. It sounds like having a theater outlet for sharing your talents is a good thing for you, and fun! I’m sorry that you have had another death in the family, another one to say goodbye to for now. Even if you believe that you will someday see them again, it is still hard to have this parting now. Hugs.
Sorry for your loss.
Thank you for your sympathies.
“Death is difficult, I don’t see the final goodbye to life as a beginning at first. I need time to process it as I think about all that I’ve lost in the last ten years and I’m overcome with emotion. I’m thankful for these dark nights of my soul as they help me appreciate the sunshine in my life.”
You express perfectly something I have felt but have had difficulty to express well.
Loss is a hard journey, with much to learn.
Thank you for sharing <3
Oh wow that’s a beautiful compliment thank you so much for reading and following my journey. ?