I hang onto things thoughts, anger, expired coupons, and clothes that don’t fit. And when I see or feel these things around me I wonder why do I this to myself? Than I remember I don’t let myself let go. Yes I go through my junk drawer every 6 months and toss out a lot of stuff accumulated there. But there I am again a few months later doing the same thing. And why because I can’t let go!!! I hang on to the pain of the past, words uttered in contempt, tears that I’ve shed, and I’m an emotional mess as these images play in my mind. There are times I just want to scream stop the insanity!!! I feel these things deeply, I’m empathic and I can absorb others pain or happiness as quick as they can project it. And with all the planetary stuff going on with the solar eclipse and Mercury in retrograde I feel every energy current transmitted. Like all of Canada yesterday, my heart was rocked with emotion from the tragedy that occurred in my nations capital. I remember standing in front of that war monument, standing in the parliament grounds so many years ago. I thought about Corporal Nathan and how he got up for work that day showered, dressed in his uniform, and drove to work not knowing it was his last day on earth. I felt such rage bubble up inside that this could happen and asking myself over and over again why? I realized I’m not letting go I’m holding onto my fear, anxiety and anger. I then felt this immense sadness and broke down into tears. I cried for this man I’ll never meet, for the family and friends that he will never see him again, and the job he’ll no longer have. So today in memory of him, of my cousin who was in active duty, and all the soldiers that have fought and continue to fight for my beloved country, I wore red. I’m going to continue to do so all weekend. I know it’s not much, but it’s something that I can do to honour this brave man. I stand in solidarity to remember this brave soldier with my fellow Canadians. This shocking and dramatic day has rocked me to my core. My heart hurts for my country, and we will grieve as a nation and honor this fallen soldier. We are the true, north, strong, and free. We are #Canadastrong. ❤️?
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