There’s times when my sadness overwhelms me. I don’t think I’m that special to have experienced no more or no less, reasons to be sad. Today I sang for my lovely Lucy, and I was trying so hard to be strong for her daughter, her family, and for all those loved ones, that came to say goodbye to a very special lady. I sang as people entered the chapel and made sure to look in the direction of support. As she guided me through the song. I couldn’t cast my eyes on the crowd before me as I had already felt their loss, pain, and deep sadness. I sat with the family, my bestie, her husband, son, brothers and their family. This incredible group of people that welcomed me into their hearts and lives nearly 30 years ago. I felt every degree of their emotions, there was lots of tears, gentle hugs, loads of love and encouragement. There was also laughter as Lucy’s brother in-law shared some stories in his eulogy of her life. She was spitfire of a woman she had an opinion, and she gave it freely with no apologies. She also had the most amazing heart and giving nature. And if you were in her family blood line or not, you were blessed and grateful. There were touching moments as my bestie shared her thoughts of her Mom and best friend. As well as a beautiful poem, from Lucy’s son. What an incredible family Lucy has raised! With wonderful daughters who were there at her side in her final moments, and preparing her for her final journey, and still standing there with a strength of a warrior. I listened with awe as my bestie fought through her tears, her pain, to give her Mom the best send off possible. I also shared my blog that I had wrote, and let the room know how important and what an impact, this amazing family has had in my life. Then it was time for a song and I sang with the help of angels on high. I sang and I shook with power, presence, and prayer. I had to take off my shoes as I was literally shaking in them. And I felt this rush of spiritual energy rising up through me as I hit every note in perfect pitch. I knew I was in the presence of angels, and there was a celebration in heaven while they welcomed Lucy home. It truly was a moment of amazing grace, and how sweet was that sight and sound. Goodbye lovely Lucy, and thank you for sharing your life and love with me.

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Jeanine Lebsack

Writer, research assistant, podcaster, reiki healer, and a passionate advocate for neurodiversity. On my writing journey I’ve discovered a plethora of passions including writing, researching, entertaining through song and dance, with a desire to explore and create something transformational and healing. I believe in the sacred art of storytelling and that there’s power in the written and spoken word. Join me on my journey using the magic of words, music, and heart song. I believe we create ripples of energy that flow throughout the universe and by sharing our stories it creates change, positivity, and healing. Have a listen to my podcast on Spotify and Anchor at House of a Writer.

2 thoughts on “Sadness

  • 12 October 2014 at 9:05 am

    Very moving Jeanine and I feel for your loss. Lucy sounds like she must have been an amazing person. My father in law’s funeral is on Wednesday and if it goes half as well as Lucy’s then I will be content.

    • 12 October 2014 at 2:09 pm

      Oh thank you Michael, for your kind words. Yes she was a lovely lady, I was honoured to know her. I wish you comfort at this sad time. ?


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